Our little Miracle

                Could it be true? We’re not only going to have “double the pleasure, double the fun” of John and Dominic, but now we get YOU too?! God is tripling our blessings.

                When we found out I was expecting our third child, I couldn’t grasp the fact that this could really happen again, and it all felt like a dream. It’s definitely been harder for me this time around. I am secondary in nature, so it took a while for it all to soak in as usual. Feeling mostly overwhelmed with the thought of having so many little ones! “How am I going to handle this?”…. “Why this timing?”…“I thought it was hard to get pregnant”….and, “Why do you trust us so much, God?!” I blame that one on Phil since he’s such a good Dad. J With there being a one and a million, very slim chance we could have gotten pregnant but did, we knew God wanted this baby for a very specific reason. That is the most consoling and liberating thing. Despite my passing emotions, there is something greater here that I was chosen to be a part of. We cannot try to figure out God and the magnificent plans he has for us, but I somehow always try. I always try to figure out why He seems a little crazy at times. J

Slowly I felt His hand upon my shoulder in comfort, guiding me to His Mother Mary, and teaching me how to continually trust in Him in all moments. He will give me all the graces I need to get through these challenging, but oh-so-sweet years. His plan is perfect and I know I will be amazed when I see it unfolding. I didn’t imagine my life already filled with four chubby feet running around (and two still acquiring their chub). But it’s a reminder to me that when you let God in, in every aspect of your life including your fertility, you experience the ultimate freedom, peace, and joy….for me that comes along with my two sweet boys and baby on the way.

                With the coming days I feel God telling me, “because I need you.” And that is enough for me. I know this is right and I know this is part of our beautiful story and masterpiece slowly unfolding, even if it’s not how I had originally envisioned it. You know, before a painter creates a mural, sometimes he has to strip down old wall paper, or fill some holes in the wall, smoothing the surface. Then one by one, he starts his brush strokes, creating his vision. If we don’t allow God to do some patch work/stripping or even painting, what will we be missing out on?! The mural is not going to look nearly as beautiful.  

                So sweet baby, you’re our little miracle! A part of that wonderful masterpiece. One that God has planned since the beginning of time. We love you dearly and cannot wait till the day comes when we can bundle you up in our arms and kiss your sweet cheeks. 21 weeks to go and counting!




 HUGE note: My husband Phil has of course been exactly what I need. His faith, support and strength ground this family. He never questions God's amazing plan for our lives. Without him, I'd be an even bigger mess!

Another note: These pictures are from our talented friend, Kathy Wight. I added the captions.
https://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Wight-Photography/136581026376652

And Sharing the news with our families is always the most fun and best of encouragements:

-Please excuse the Greek olympian god.
-I'm the one being attacked.

Some readings that helped me when I first discovered I was expecting again!

2^nd Letter of Paul to the Corinthians 9: 6-10—“Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows bountifully will also reap bountifully...for God loves a cheerful giver. Moreover, God is able to make every grace abundant for you, so that in all things, always having all you need, you may have an abundance for every good work.”

Excerpt from, I believe in Love – My nature says, “No”; my will says, “Yes.” My nature trembles; with all my will, I smile through my tears. My nature is troubled and afraid; my heart recalls the divine testament: “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give unto you.” (Jn 14:27) My nature revolts; I force myself to say, “All is well, Jesus; do not change anything.” It is a fight which we must take up again and again without ceasing, for our fallen nature always rears up its head. St. Fancis de Sales says it dies a quarter of an hour after we do! This is the drama of our life. But the beautiful thing is that Jesus sees our will united to His by a fundamental choice. All those movements of our nature, if we do not consent to them, do not exist for Him.

We can even rejoice, in a sense, in having an evil nature which justly gives us the occasion to deny it our consent and to repeat, “No, Jesus, it is your will that I love; it is that which I want and nothing else. It is you whom I choose.” According to Saint Paul, “strength is perfected in weakness,” confidence is perfected in worry, humility is perfected in the movements of pride, light is perfected in darkness.