Our little Miracle
Could
it be true? We’re not only going to have “double the pleasure, double the fun”
of John and Dominic, but now we get YOU too?! God is tripling our blessings.
When we
found out I was expecting our third child, I couldn’t grasp the fact that this
could really happen again, and it all felt like a dream. It’s definitely been
harder for me this time around. I am secondary in nature, so it took a while
for it all to soak in as usual. Feeling mostly overwhelmed with the thought of
having so many little ones! “How am I going to handle this?”…. “Why this timing?”…“I
thought it was hard to get pregnant”….and, “Why do you trust us so much, God?!”
I blame that one on Phil since he’s such a good Dad. J With there being a one and a
million, very slim chance we could have gotten pregnant but did, we knew God
wanted this baby for a very specific reason. That is the most consoling and
liberating thing. Despite my passing emotions, there is something greater here
that I was chosen to be a part of. We cannot try to figure out God and the
magnificent plans he has for us, but I somehow always try. I always try to
figure out why He seems a little crazy at times. J
Slowly I felt His hand upon my
shoulder in comfort, guiding me to His Mother Mary, and teaching me how to
continually trust in Him in all moments. He will give me all the graces I need
to get through these challenging, but oh-so-sweet years. His plan is perfect
and I know I will be amazed when I see it unfolding. I didn’t imagine my life
already filled with four chubby feet running around (and two still acquiring their
chub). But it’s a reminder to me that when you let God in, in every aspect of
your life including your fertility, you experience the ultimate freedom, peace,
and joy….for me that comes along with my two sweet boys and baby on the way.
With
the coming days I feel God telling me, “because I need you.” And that is enough
for me. I know this is right and I know this is part of our beautiful story and
masterpiece slowly unfolding, even if it’s not how I had originally envisioned
it. You know, before a painter creates a mural, sometimes he has to strip down
old wall paper, or fill some holes in the wall, smoothing the surface. Then one
by one, he starts his brush strokes, creating his vision. If we don’t allow God
to do some patch work/stripping or even painting, what will we be missing out
on?! The mural is not going to look nearly as beautiful.
So
sweet baby, you’re our little miracle! A part of that wonderful masterpiece. One
that God has planned since the beginning of time. We love you dearly and cannot
wait till the day comes when we can bundle you up in our arms and kiss your
sweet cheeks. 21 weeks to go and counting!
HUGE note: My husband Phil has of course been exactly what I need. His faith, support and strength ground this family. He never questions God's amazing plan for our lives. Without him, I'd be an even bigger mess!
Another note: These pictures are from our talented friend, Kathy Wight. I added the captions.
https://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Wight-Photography/136581026376652
And Sharing the news with our families is always the most fun and best of encouragements:
-Please excuse the Greek olympian god.
-I'm the one being attacked.
Some readings that helped me when I first discovered I was
expecting again!
2nd Letter of Paul to the Corinthians 9: 6-10—“Whoever
sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows bountifully will also
reap bountifully...for God loves a cheerful giver. Moreover, God is able to
make every grace abundant for you, so that in all things, always having all you
need, you may have an abundance for every good work.”
Excerpt from, I believe in Love – My nature says, “No”; my
will says, “Yes.” My nature trembles; with all my will, I smile through my
tears. My nature is troubled and afraid; my heart recalls the divine testament:
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give unto you.” (Jn 14:27) My nature
revolts; I force myself to say, “All is well, Jesus; do not change anything.”
It is a fight which we must take up again and again without ceasing, for our
fallen nature always rears up its head. St. Fancis de Sales says it dies a
quarter of an hour after we do! This is the drama of our life. But the
beautiful thing is that Jesus sees our will united to His by a fundamental
choice. All those movements of our nature, if we do not consent to them, do not
exist for Him.
We can even rejoice, in a sense, in having an evil nature
which justly gives us the occasion to deny it our consent and to repeat, “No,
Jesus, it is your will that I love; it is that which I want and nothing else.
It is you whom I choose.” According to Saint Paul, “strength is perfected in
weakness,” confidence is perfected in worry, humility is perfected in the
movements of pride, light is perfected in darkness.
